Here's something i wish to share from my thoughts. Each one of us pick up knocks and bruises from daily routines throughout our period we are on Earth. What matters most isn't the degree of pain these knocks brings us neither is it the scars that are left behind.

I believe what will eventually matters most is how we address the knocks and bruises that comes along in our lives. They come in all form and from all sources. Some comes from our friends in forms of rejection or even a simple comment could cause a major injury in our spirit. Other might come in forms of death of loved ones. I can never ever describe the lost and hurt of losing a mum or someone whom you love and cared about.

But it's not how intensive these knocks come about that will matter at the end of the day cos after a week, the loved ones would be buried / cremated or after a week, you'll patch up with your friends who insulted you, etc


But rather it's what happens to that comment or should i put it how you deal with it. There are many ways we deal with hurts throughout our lives,

Some of us chose to HIDE it. On the outside, we put on a perfectly crafted mask, no one would ever get to know what is on the inside of our heart. We know deep within us that the hurt and wound is hurting us badly but we chose to hide it rather than dealing with it. It's the same when it comes to cuts. It would hurt us to the bone but we need to deal with the pain if we ever want to recover from the "cuts" of the world.

Some of us chose to IGNORE it Pretending that the hurt never existed. To sweep it under the carpet praying hard that overtime the hurts would just dissolve in the air. Oh, how i wish that would be the case. Cos it that was the case, the answer to life would have been alcohol, drugs, smoking, etc


Whatever we chose, whether to shut the door to our hearts, or to ignore it might seems at the best solution at the moment. I love this saying to the core. God gave us feeling. And the reason why God don't remove the painful feeling is because He wants to address the problems properly. Isn't that comforting to hear that? I believe that if God will to hear our request and remove our feeling, He wouldn't be loving us but rather, putting us away when he numbs us of our feelings.

I've found people who got their requests answered and i wish to share it. You can find these people in mental institution! They are in a world of their own, with no one who can hurt them anymore and with no more pain and no more rejection. But at the end of the day, I asked myself is that what i want? To close up the door and be in a world of our own?

At this point, you might say NO! you might be thinking who on earth would be so foolish as to think of mental institution as a solution to our problems. But i wish to stop you on your tracks! I pled guilty of doing and i believe you at different point in life have done that before.

Try recalling the last thing you felt hurt... What was your first reaction? Was it to deal with the problem? Or was it to keep very quiet and try to isolate yourself? I would be lying to myself if i said i chose the first one cos i didn't! I followed something that was in me. It was within the human nature to isolate ourselves when things don't go right rather than to face it. That's the cause of my lost of joy. I hope to encourage all my friends who have access to my blog and i pray that you'll turn to the correct source for solution and not to drugs and drinking, etc.

A friend of mine once sent me an encouraging message that says: " Everyone of us at different time feel sad and down at different time. It's the solution that we chose that determines if we becomes winners or losers. God brings the problems to us to make us grow and become overcomer.

It's my prayer that all my friends will one day understand and experience the source of strength that has keep me sane for the past 18 years. And as i approach my 19 birthday with expectancy, and i look past, i realised that the period of time where i've grown the most was when i was with the lord.

Thank for reading to this part of the blog. The second part of this blog I wish to personally thank all my friends for their friendship. To all my friends: No words can better describe my gratitude then the following two words which have been used time and again! THANK YOU!!! Thank you all for encouraging me when i was down, you guys picked me up, healed me, encouraged me, spurred me on, cheer me on and of course, celebrated with me! Thank you!